i didn't see the ergs! today.

i'm grumpy.
guhhhhhhhhh.

laura hates erika, i don't know why, but she just keeps complaining about how she sucks and her hospitality is just a joke.
should i kill her?
probably.

i downloaded a lot of music today haha you faggots fuck the world woohooo 666 fuck the world again since i said it already.

cool hangout tonight maybe?
weirdos with dreads fucking bros playing drinking games dub you are a bro playing beer games just take some shots you pansy lol you are gai hahaha dub you always wear flannel and you smoke the worst black and milds cast mosh woohoo bro, i love you dub.


i only love a few people and dub happens to be one of them hah word love my friends laura doesn't count because she hates me oh man she does later guys.

currently

i am lying in bed with this beautiful boy.




josh smiz is also in the room as well.
i think we are about to walk to quiznos.

past week has pretty much ruled, minus school being a bitch.
suck my dick.

homemade tattoos

ftw.
suuuuuper tired.
class sucked, and i hate taking tests that i am nowhere near prepared for.
oh well, i guess that is my own fault.

about to shower, type a paper, and hopefully get a nap in before class at 2.

ugggggggggggh.
i just need some rest.

tired of constantly going, guh.




i love this album.

hopefully getting tattooed sometime within the next week or two.
real tattoo this time, and not just homemade ones from ethan.

pretty stoked.

i need more money.
give it to me.

these past few days have been pretty eventful.

meeting new people rules.
hanging out with people you haven't hungout with in a while.
hanging out with people who you always get into some mischief with is the best.


last night, ethan, lauren, and i watched a car drive into fucking shafer court, and hit something.

he then proceeded to drive around, and speed out of shafer court again, down park.

two cops are on the street, and try to get him to stop by standing in front of his car.

he could give a fuck less, and drives right around the two cops, going somewhere near 50 mph.
he then proceeds to speed right through a red light, and drive off with the cops not being able to catch him at that moment.

punx.

whaaaaaat?

if this jesus piece around your neck is bigger than your pistol,
it makes homicide okie-dokie and your god will forgive you.
just show the saints at heaven's gate, you should be on the list
"I heard he overlooks manslaughter for a tattooed crucifix."

last night was amazing.

thank you ethan for making my boring, unproductive night a lot more productive.

fuck you wigga bros.
way to look like fred durst LOL.

adventures have been somewhat of abundance lately, and that i am thankful for.

glad i have some good friends still.

9/16/08

williamsburg today with ethan, allison, and erika.
no, i didn't forget your names.

got a new windbreaker.
for what?

free.
word up, thanks to some sticky fingers.
new cab driver hat as well.
wordddd, fuck you j crew, expensive ass queeeaz.

got some legit shafer twice today, which was weird.
got a chance to ride my bike a little, which was refreshing.

i'm homework free, as of now, which is legit.
too bad it won't stay that way for long.

awkward situations have been arising as of late, and i'm pretty confused as to what to do.

i'll never find a set path to follow.

this whole blog is bullshit, and i'm never sure why i come back and update.
i'm mad that there are people that follow it.

find something better to do!

past weekend and the such.

this past weekend was interesting and awesome.

i stayed the whole weekend in goochland with my boy mark.
chilled with all the people i hadn't seen in a while, i.e. mark, reid, dub, jordan, brandon, taylor.

best dudes, best time.
i wish i saw those dudes everyday.

weekend was pretty eventful, and i was stoked on the new material that got recorded for RGZ.

this week is going to suck, i can tell already, but it's whatever.

hopefully i can keep up in school.

rgz

shit is reaaaaaaaal.

http://www.myspace.com/gangsta972


peep it, hate it, whateverrrrrr.

been chilling in the west end this weekend with tha boiz, mark, taylor, dub, reid.
never not.

shoutoutz to all the boyz that couldn't be here.

shitload of homework tomorrow.
oh well.

RUTHLESS GANGSTAZ

CAN YOU RUN WIF DA DOGZ?
DIDN'T THINK SO.

KEEP THE CAGE LOCKED, CUZ I'LL COME STRAIGHT OUT, BOTH GATZ COCKED.
THA FIRE ON THE C STREETZ IS BURNIN' UP, YOU'LL NEED MORE THAN JUST A CUP
PROBABLY A WHOLE GALLON, TO EXTINGUISH MY FLAMEZ, I'M COMING THROUGH YOUR HOOD,
TAKING ALL YA LADIEZ, AND SCREWING YA DAMEZ.
FUCK WITH MY STYLE, THAT'S LIKE SENDING TEXTS TO CHARLEZ MANSON
YOU OTHER WEAK FOOLS GOT RHYMEZ LIKE THOSE FAGGOT TRIPLETS FROM HANSON.



STEP UP.
69 666 420.

who the fuck am i kidding?

i am so alone it isn't even funny.

classes ended relatively quickly today.
i'm still waking up drenced in sweat, weird.

i haven't sat down and watched a good movie in a while.
this is something i really miss doing.

i need season 3 of weeds on dvd please.

going to go ride my bike.
goooood.

it's easier now just to think of the past

loose lips sank ships and no one survived.
what could have been is all just a lie.
high hopes and potential just led to shit.
everyone failed, everyone quit.
we passed out.
we dropped out.
we missed out.
we lost out.

stumble and fall

into a world that's overcrowded.


i want to start eating again.
having no appetite is seriously the worst shit ever.
being sick is awful as well.

i'm back in richmond though, which is nice, but being home was nice.
it was nice to be around my family some.
it was nice to eat a home-cooked meal.
it was nice to see sarah.
it was nice to just be in a relaxed environment where i could just lie around and do and worry about nothing.

hopefully, i can go home and visit again soon.

i want to be healthy again.
it sucks to be able to see my ribs.

i think life should be looking up for now.
it's about time.

three year bitch

On the very night of my attempted suicide, you went out dancing underneath those neon lights on 109.
What was I to do when all my trust was placed in you?
You led me down an open road and then you left me all alone to die.
There were times you tried to put me in my place.
I don't know if I wanted to kiss you - or spit right in your face.
You could've shown me some heart.
You couldn't wet an eye.
You didn't give a fuck if I'd live or if I'd die.
I fought the sleep, and I stopped the blood.
But I just couldn't choke back the tears.
I looked to you, you screamed out loud and left me standing there.
Before you burn the bridge down, there's one thing that I'd like to know.
Did it have to take you three long years just to let me go?
I once believed in forever.
I'd seen it in your eyes.
But now you abandoned me to false hopes and unsevered ties.
Now I'm left with nightmares, and no reason why it had to take you three years just to say goodbye.
I hope I never have to see your face again.
I don't know what I'd do.
What I don't know won't hurt me.
What I find out just might kill you.
I'd like to know the answer to this question before I fall apart.









Did it have to take you three years just to break my heart?

it's time

to make a change in this shitty life that i lead day-to-day.
something has got to be different.
i need self-control.
i need patience.
i just need to be smart.
i need the support of others.

hopefully i can pull through with what i really want to do.

today

going back to chesapeake until sunday.
hopefully i haven't been completely forgotten by everyone.

if you are going to be anywhere near chesapeake, virginia beach, norfolk, suffolk, etc., let me know so that we can hang.

awesome.

wow.

tonight was ridiculous.

well

for a day or so there i had caught up on sleep and was feeling good.
now, i do not feel that way.
fuck class, just let me sleep all day.

this blog sucks so much.

whewwwwww

i finished all my homework yesterday.
i'm so stoked on that, considering i had been procrastinating for a long time with it.

spent the night out again last night, stayed up way too fucking late.

what else is new?