fuck christmas.

and fuck everything.

well, because people decided it would be a good idea to snitch, i am in legal trouble.


snitching is such a cool thing to do.
seriously, snitch dude, it will get you soooo far in life.

all that really matters.

i guess

i have nothing to talk about anymore.

me and you vs. them

i never post anymore.
i guess whenever i think about talking about something, i just decide not to last minute.
nothing is really all that new in my life, honestly.
i want to travel somewhere soon.
i want to get up, leave, and get to someplace new.
i get used to places too easily, and i need something new.

i think my family is going to hawaii this summer for 10 days.
they sprung that on me last week.

i'm actually pretty excited.
i mean, i don't surf or whatever, but it will be neat to be in a new place that i've never been before.
i'm pretty stoked for that.

paint a vulgar picture

last night was ray's birthday, and he got shitfaced.
he seemed happy, for the most part, which was good.
laura and i are going home today for my mom's birthday.
then, brotherbood birthday whatever for a bit.
hopefully it goes well.
tomorrow morning we're driving up for the state meet to see the dudes run, so hopefully they win.
saturday night is lemuria in richmond, so i'm stoked on that.
sunday seems like it will be filled with homework.
oh well.
stoked on getting my half sleeve started sometime soon.

i've been feeling a little better lately, and it's been good to balance some alone time with time with friends.
school has been getting better also, but i have some things to get straight before the end of the semester comes around.

next semester seems like it's going to be awesome, and i'm taking a lot of classes that i'm really stoked on.
last night, laura and i got our tickets for the burning fight show in chicago may 2nd and 3rd.

Date-May 2nd and 3rd 2009
Doors at 12pm Show at 1pm each day

Venue-The Metro http://www.metrochicago.com/

Price-$55 No single day tickets available

Benefit for the following-
Rock for Reading http://www.rockforreading.org/
PAWS Chicago http://www.pawschicago.org/

Bands
Unbroken
Disembodied
Trial
Mouthpiece
108
Underdog
Guilt
Killingtime
Damnation AD
Ringworm
Threadbare
Split Lip
Reach The Sky
Bane
Betrayed
Blacklisted
Have Heart
Soul Control
The Killer
Convicted
Harms Way
Thought Crusade


Tickets, however, sold out in 18 hours, so i'm beyond stoked that i was able to get them when they were still available.

blah blah

built an awesome teepee/wigwam with brandon/mark/laura today.
fuck yeah.
it rules, and there will be many interesting occurrences there soon.

krooked klox for life.

halloween wasn't that exciting this year, and i didn't really do too much out of the ordinary.
it's awesome being clean, and making positive changes in my life.

now i just need to start running/working out again.

h20/bane/cruel hand is tomorrow, and i'm stoked for that.

i need a job, so i can be responsible for myself and have money to blowwwww.

word.

it's time

to clean up my fucking life.
i need a positive change.
i need to stop fucking up.

here goes nothing?

re-cap

past few days have been cold, which i like.
saw a bunch of cool people, including brandon youngs and ray ray, who haven't been up here for a while.
a bunch of my friends got tattooed, which is fucking awesome, and i'm super stoked for that.
everyone of them is really stoked.

went to chipotle yesterday with my mom, and then got a few new pairs of jeans.
amped on that, and it was awesome to see her.

saw mark, brandon, taylor, reid, and laura yesterday, and we all hung out.

went to cold harbor the other night, and there wasn't really much going on, except for weird winds and a dude coming out of a weird house.

chipotle rules a lot and i'll be eating there within the next hour.

ray ray is adorable in his hat.
chilling rules, fuck school and work.
hot tubs f t w.

fuck 11:11

sporadic posting rules.

take

as needed

for pain.

things are looking up?

kinda.
i am dating laura now, which has definitely made me a lot happier.
i saw dub and reid last night, which was cool.

i wish all my friends lived in the city with me, and i didn't have to get out to the west end all the time to see them.
fell asleep pretty early last night, it was a good change.
i was supposed to listen to this radio show for an hour and a half before class at 1, and i haven't even started yet.
it doesn't look like i will be getting much of that done.
oh well.

hanging today hopefully will consist of:

kicking it with josh, erika, hopefully ethan.
going to this graveyard josh explained to me while i was asleep last night.
hanging with brittany clark?

mark's birthday party is on saturday and i couldn't be more stoked.

i love my brothers.

why the fuck

do things happen to me this way?
why the fuck do i have to be interested in people that aren't available?
why don't these people ever see that i really do care about them and want to have fun with them, unlike the people they are currently with.

if you ever see this, know that i will never be as boring and gay as the dude you're with now.
so, if that's what you're into, sorry that i'll never be the dude for you.

glad i got to see the following people today:

josh
erika
ethan
kage
allison
crazy zack
laura

fuck today, fuck most everything.
things

fall

apart.

definitely not a good day.

so, i tried to do a lab this morning for my psych class, but got locked out, and it didn't work.
so, long story short, i'm fucked, and have a zero for the assignment.
cooooooool.

classes were dumb, and i still have a 3 hour lecture tonight at 7.
mondays are the worst days.

yesterday/last night was cool.
got to hang with some quality individuals, and almost caught up to an escaping car on foot.
ate some legitimate bacon pizza from chanellos for a decent price.

stayed up way too late last night, watched the shining, which is definitely an amazing movie.

i think i'm gonna go bike and grab some shafer.
hopefully today gets better.

never

will i understand myself.
never


will i be able to explain any of my true thoughts.

i'm going fucking crazy for no apparent reason, and i can't change it.

things fall apart

past few days have been interesting/weird/fun/exciting.
hungout with some different people.
saw a lot of friends tonight at new found glory, which was cool.
show was fun, but i've just been in a shitty mood all night, ever since.

i give up on the female race.

i am gonna get tattooed tomorrow.

fuck

the

world.

i didn't see the ergs! today.

i'm grumpy.
guhhhhhhhhh.

laura hates erika, i don't know why, but she just keeps complaining about how she sucks and her hospitality is just a joke.
should i kill her?
probably.

i downloaded a lot of music today haha you faggots fuck the world woohooo 666 fuck the world again since i said it already.

cool hangout tonight maybe?
weirdos with dreads fucking bros playing drinking games dub you are a bro playing beer games just take some shots you pansy lol you are gai hahaha dub you always wear flannel and you smoke the worst black and milds cast mosh woohoo bro, i love you dub.


i only love a few people and dub happens to be one of them hah word love my friends laura doesn't count because she hates me oh man she does later guys.

currently

i am lying in bed with this beautiful boy.




josh smiz is also in the room as well.
i think we are about to walk to quiznos.

past week has pretty much ruled, minus school being a bitch.
suck my dick.

homemade tattoos

ftw.
suuuuuper tired.
class sucked, and i hate taking tests that i am nowhere near prepared for.
oh well, i guess that is my own fault.

about to shower, type a paper, and hopefully get a nap in before class at 2.

ugggggggggggh.
i just need some rest.

tired of constantly going, guh.




i love this album.

hopefully getting tattooed sometime within the next week or two.
real tattoo this time, and not just homemade ones from ethan.

pretty stoked.

i need more money.
give it to me.

these past few days have been pretty eventful.

meeting new people rules.
hanging out with people you haven't hungout with in a while.
hanging out with people who you always get into some mischief with is the best.


last night, ethan, lauren, and i watched a car drive into fucking shafer court, and hit something.

he then proceeded to drive around, and speed out of shafer court again, down park.

two cops are on the street, and try to get him to stop by standing in front of his car.

he could give a fuck less, and drives right around the two cops, going somewhere near 50 mph.
he then proceeds to speed right through a red light, and drive off with the cops not being able to catch him at that moment.

punx.

whaaaaaat?

if this jesus piece around your neck is bigger than your pistol,
it makes homicide okie-dokie and your god will forgive you.
just show the saints at heaven's gate, you should be on the list
"I heard he overlooks manslaughter for a tattooed crucifix."

last night was amazing.

thank you ethan for making my boring, unproductive night a lot more productive.

fuck you wigga bros.
way to look like fred durst LOL.

adventures have been somewhat of abundance lately, and that i am thankful for.

glad i have some good friends still.

9/16/08

williamsburg today with ethan, allison, and erika.
no, i didn't forget your names.

got a new windbreaker.
for what?

free.
word up, thanks to some sticky fingers.
new cab driver hat as well.
wordddd, fuck you j crew, expensive ass queeeaz.

got some legit shafer twice today, which was weird.
got a chance to ride my bike a little, which was refreshing.

i'm homework free, as of now, which is legit.
too bad it won't stay that way for long.

awkward situations have been arising as of late, and i'm pretty confused as to what to do.

i'll never find a set path to follow.

this whole blog is bullshit, and i'm never sure why i come back and update.
i'm mad that there are people that follow it.

find something better to do!

past weekend and the such.

this past weekend was interesting and awesome.

i stayed the whole weekend in goochland with my boy mark.
chilled with all the people i hadn't seen in a while, i.e. mark, reid, dub, jordan, brandon, taylor.

best dudes, best time.
i wish i saw those dudes everyday.

weekend was pretty eventful, and i was stoked on the new material that got recorded for RGZ.

this week is going to suck, i can tell already, but it's whatever.

hopefully i can keep up in school.

rgz

shit is reaaaaaaaal.

http://www.myspace.com/gangsta972


peep it, hate it, whateverrrrrr.

been chilling in the west end this weekend with tha boiz, mark, taylor, dub, reid.
never not.

shoutoutz to all the boyz that couldn't be here.

shitload of homework tomorrow.
oh well.

RUTHLESS GANGSTAZ

CAN YOU RUN WIF DA DOGZ?
DIDN'T THINK SO.

KEEP THE CAGE LOCKED, CUZ I'LL COME STRAIGHT OUT, BOTH GATZ COCKED.
THA FIRE ON THE C STREETZ IS BURNIN' UP, YOU'LL NEED MORE THAN JUST A CUP
PROBABLY A WHOLE GALLON, TO EXTINGUISH MY FLAMEZ, I'M COMING THROUGH YOUR HOOD,
TAKING ALL YA LADIEZ, AND SCREWING YA DAMEZ.
FUCK WITH MY STYLE, THAT'S LIKE SENDING TEXTS TO CHARLEZ MANSON
YOU OTHER WEAK FOOLS GOT RHYMEZ LIKE THOSE FAGGOT TRIPLETS FROM HANSON.



STEP UP.
69 666 420.

who the fuck am i kidding?

i am so alone it isn't even funny.

classes ended relatively quickly today.
i'm still waking up drenced in sweat, weird.

i haven't sat down and watched a good movie in a while.
this is something i really miss doing.

i need season 3 of weeds on dvd please.

going to go ride my bike.
goooood.

it's easier now just to think of the past

loose lips sank ships and no one survived.
what could have been is all just a lie.
high hopes and potential just led to shit.
everyone failed, everyone quit.
we passed out.
we dropped out.
we missed out.
we lost out.

stumble and fall

into a world that's overcrowded.


i want to start eating again.
having no appetite is seriously the worst shit ever.
being sick is awful as well.

i'm back in richmond though, which is nice, but being home was nice.
it was nice to be around my family some.
it was nice to eat a home-cooked meal.
it was nice to see sarah.
it was nice to just be in a relaxed environment where i could just lie around and do and worry about nothing.

hopefully, i can go home and visit again soon.

i want to be healthy again.
it sucks to be able to see my ribs.

i think life should be looking up for now.
it's about time.

three year bitch

On the very night of my attempted suicide, you went out dancing underneath those neon lights on 109.
What was I to do when all my trust was placed in you?
You led me down an open road and then you left me all alone to die.
There were times you tried to put me in my place.
I don't know if I wanted to kiss you - or spit right in your face.
You could've shown me some heart.
You couldn't wet an eye.
You didn't give a fuck if I'd live or if I'd die.
I fought the sleep, and I stopped the blood.
But I just couldn't choke back the tears.
I looked to you, you screamed out loud and left me standing there.
Before you burn the bridge down, there's one thing that I'd like to know.
Did it have to take you three long years just to let me go?
I once believed in forever.
I'd seen it in your eyes.
But now you abandoned me to false hopes and unsevered ties.
Now I'm left with nightmares, and no reason why it had to take you three years just to say goodbye.
I hope I never have to see your face again.
I don't know what I'd do.
What I don't know won't hurt me.
What I find out just might kill you.
I'd like to know the answer to this question before I fall apart.









Did it have to take you three years just to break my heart?

it's time

to make a change in this shitty life that i lead day-to-day.
something has got to be different.
i need self-control.
i need patience.
i just need to be smart.
i need the support of others.

hopefully i can pull through with what i really want to do.

today

going back to chesapeake until sunday.
hopefully i haven't been completely forgotten by everyone.

if you are going to be anywhere near chesapeake, virginia beach, norfolk, suffolk, etc., let me know so that we can hang.

awesome.

wow.

tonight was ridiculous.

well

for a day or so there i had caught up on sleep and was feeling good.
now, i do not feel that way.
fuck class, just let me sleep all day.

this blog sucks so much.

whewwwwww

i finished all my homework yesterday.
i'm so stoked on that, considering i had been procrastinating for a long time with it.

spent the night out again last night, stayed up way too fucking late.

what else is new?

ooooof.

just went on a killer bike ride to the drainage ditches.
fun, but rough as shit.
fuck hills.

i've got a lot of work to do this weekend, which isn't making me stoked whatsoever, but i'm getting ready to start and take care of it.

word.

the fact that

some people actually read this is indeed mind-boggling.
taking interest in my life is extremely humorous, and makes me quite confused.

lately, i've just been hanging out a lot.
saw some friends yesterday that i don't see very often, so i was stoked on that.

i've figured out the shit for the class that i missed twice, but i still have a 4-page paper to write before wednesday.

oh welllllll.

i've noticed since i've been up here, that i only eat approx. once a day.
this fact is extremely depressing, but what else am i to do with a meal plan and no money?

hopefully i can come up with a solution to this problem sometime soon, because starving all the time is not the way to go.

someone feed me!




this dude is nuts.
his name is cage, and he's psychotic and even more insane than me.
that rules.

fuck the world, hail satan 666.

sleep deprived

so, i've got to start settling in, and taking school more seriously.
i've got a lot of work to do, but if i sit down and spread it all out, i can get it done.

i'm fucking up, and i need to fix it.

so, i think this is my third post today.

which makes me a fucking faggot.
i'm in baltimore, of all places, hanging with my friend liz.
this apartment rules, but fuck drinking mass amounts of coffee in short periods of time.

never not staying up all night on the computer, listening to braid.

my life as of late has been insane, yet awesome at the same time.

never

fucking



sleeping.

i guess college has made me update this a lot more.
i'm a fucking faggot.

lately

i've been walking and biking everywhere.
i'm losing weight, which is awesome.

fuck my bike having a flat tire, and having to walk long distances early in the morning.

fuck sleep, i'm not wasting my life.

these past few days

have been nothing short of ridiculous.

i don't think i fell asleep until 6 this morning, and i have class in an hour.

fuck me, please kill me.

richmond

for good.
come visit and hangout.

blah blah blah

i hate everything.
complain complain complain.

i'll never take my meds again.

fuck the world.

am i always going to feel this pain?

will i always sit around wondering why i feel the way i do?
i'm not sure whether or not the day will come when i will truly be happy.

is that even a possibility?

posting from

jasmine's computer.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
whatup world?
joanna newsom rules.
food rules.

i'm gonna go combine the two.
WORD.

peaceful.

update?

so, i have a new girlfriend named jasmine.
she is cool, and i do like spending time with her.
i saw stepbrothers tonight, and it was hilarious.
today was my last day of work, so i have a few weeks to do nothing but hangout before school.
mobb deep rules, and i'm about to ride my bike to wawa.

so, rock the bells

was completely amazing, and i definitely feel like my forty dollars were well-spent.

we got there a little late, so i missed almost all of murs' set, which was kind of a bummer, but oh well.

i caught dead prez though, and tehy were amazing, especially with a biggie cover.
i was stoked on their song selection, but it still could have beeen better.

the pharcyde was awesome, goofy, and ridiculous all at the same time, and i was stoked.

immortal technique was such a let down.
he needs to quit the whole angry, pissed off style, and write something creative again.

de la soul were really tight, and had a legit set, that lasted a while.

mos def was suprisingly pretty good.
i'm not usually a huge fan of his, but he put on a legit show.

rae and ghost were super fucking tight, and i was really stoked on the song selection, however, i would have been happier with more ghostface songs from ironman.

meth and red were word, but i would have loved to hear some more stuff off of tical.
i don't really like redman too much, for real.

rakim was tight, for real, but it didn't seem like people were very into him, honestly.

and tribe was kind of a let-down.
i didn't hear many songs off of midnight marauders, and that is most definitely the best album.

all in all, it was WELL worth the money, and i'm glad i was able to make it home last night alive.

i don't give a god damn

on the shows you did.
how many rhymes you got, or who knows you kid.
cause i don't know you, therefore show me what you know.
i come sharp as a blade and i cut you slow.

i need something to keep me warm. please tell me that you will. i'm so cold and all alone.

things are going to be better now?
i surely do hope so.

i'm glad that raven and i sorted our problems out.
i'm ready for that to work outttttttt.
:)

yes

i really do want to get up and leave, and never come back.
how long will it last?
i don't even know.

i wish

i never woke up again.

basic instructions before leaving earth.

my chest hurts.
work sucks.
my little entries in this thing are really pathetic and stupid, but i guess it's something to keep me occupied.

raven rules a whole lot, and i wish i was with her right now, like usual.
if anyone knows a way to bring chicago physically closer to virginia, please let me know!



this is seriously one of the best hip-hop records ever.
it is completely flawless, and rules in so many different ways.

savage land-demo 2007

This is just a little silly review for an awesome up-and-coming band called Savage Land.

Savage Land is a five-piece hardcore band from Harrisonburg, Virginia, playing a unique heavy style of hardcore with vocals that, at times, sound like an even more pissed off Dan Yemin, in my opinion.
On this four song demo, lots of different styles are covered, unlike many bands that are coming out nowadays, who are playing the same thing song after song.
Savage Land is a breath of fresh air, with heavy riffs, cool solos, and pissed off and negative as fuck lyrics.
The sooner you check this band out, the better.
They have shirts for sale also, so check in on that.




Savage Land is:


Dave - Guitar
Austin - Guitar
Phil - Drums
Tim - Bass
Marty - Vocals

working sucks.

give me more money.

i miss raven a lot, and i wish i was in chicago hanging out right now, instead of sitting here doing nothing.
after a year, i will be there.
i'm only counting tha dayzzzzzz.





i finally found a girl who will eat burritos with me as much as i want.

i couldn't be more happy about that.

everything else pretty much sucks except for my close dudes.

no warning s/t fucking rips.
that is all.

blah

got me a gurl

her name ravennnnnnn
she is better than you.

chicago soon enough!

PS.

raven will be here thursday.
i cannot believe i get to spend 3 days with her.

even though i feel like most of my life sucks, it really seems like this will turn it around.

stoked.

i pass out too much lately.
i was asleep for 3 hours tonight while everyone else was just hanging out.
klee's mom thought i was on pcp.

huh?


i think i've had 10 burritos in the past two weeks.
that is not enough.




been listening to this cd a whole lot.
red house painters fucking rules.

early morning heat

it's always so hot in the early mornings, and i hate it.

a week off from work rules.
vcu orientation by myself will be soo0o0o cool.


raven comes thursday!
cannot explain my excitement.

RAVEN

will be visiting me july 3rd-6th.



sooooooo stoked.



could not be more excited.
i will marry her.







just sayin'

52 pickup

think i care is fucking heavy as shit.

that is all.

stay cold

this weekend ruled.
i slept on the beach, and it was awesome.
i went to busch gardens for an hour.
i saw iron boots.
i saw get real.
i saw dead serious.
i saw naysayer.
i saw war hungry.
i saw down to nothing.

i had a lot of fun, and it fucking ruled.

i have an awesome best friend, who always seems to come around at the right time.

life seems to be getting better, and the year is almost ending, in school.

last quarter of high school.

why do you have to be so difficult?
or am i just that lazy?

this weekend is going to rule.

trapped under ice/shipwreck/bracewar/jerk city on saturday.
mongoloids/kids like us/bloody sunday on sunday.

next weekend is iron boots/dead serious/naysayer/war hungry/get real/down to nothing.


stoked.

worthless nights

no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.
no motivation.

all my days are wasted.

i really don't do much anymore.
sitting at home tonight, alone, doing nothing, allowed me plenty of time to think.
upon thinking, i realized that i really just don't do much.

these days, people are too busy with whatever to hangout.
whatever happened to just spontaneously hanging out with people?
i miss being able to call people on the whim and be able to go over and just hang.
everything these days seems so planned out.
i just want more things to do.

raspberry fields

"i lost my first wish, and remember every detail of my first kiss."

album is so solid.
basically, i'm tired.
i am completely and ridiculously stoked on rock the bells, and will be heading up for the D.C. show, definitely.
prom is on saturday, and i'm actually pretty stoked.

life is all right, i guess.
i find myself still, caring less and less about most of the current things going on with my life.
hopefully that changes soon.

i'm really just ready to graduate and move on with my life.

it seems like as i get closer and closer to finishing up school, for some strange reason, work is getting harder and harder.

i am having a really hard time getting things done, and not procrastinating.

being lazy really sucks, and i need to fix my attitude toward certain things.

graduation cannot come soon enough.

i can't stop listening to band of horses.

mannnn.

haven't slept yet, and it's 12:10 PM.

i'm still not really tired though, and i'm gonna go ride my bike long distances.

wordddddd.

what am i doing?

after sifting through these blogs of friends and acquaintances, and being very bored, i figured i would make one of my own.

however, now that i have created this, i realize that i don't really have much to say.

i guess it's good to get my thoughts down though.

maybe i will look back at this later, and realize that i was silly for making it.

oh well.

i have been listening to the promise ring album 'nothing feels good' quite a bit lately.

it rules a whole lot.
maybe more to come soon, but for now, this is it.