it's time

to clean up my fucking life.
i need a positive change.
i need to stop fucking up.

here goes nothing?

re-cap

past few days have been cold, which i like.
saw a bunch of cool people, including brandon youngs and ray ray, who haven't been up here for a while.
a bunch of my friends got tattooed, which is fucking awesome, and i'm super stoked for that.
everyone of them is really stoked.

went to chipotle yesterday with my mom, and then got a few new pairs of jeans.
amped on that, and it was awesome to see her.

saw mark, brandon, taylor, reid, and laura yesterday, and we all hung out.

went to cold harbor the other night, and there wasn't really much going on, except for weird winds and a dude coming out of a weird house.

chipotle rules a lot and i'll be eating there within the next hour.

ray ray is adorable in his hat.
chilling rules, fuck school and work.
hot tubs f t w.

fuck 11:11

sporadic posting rules.

take

as needed

for pain.

things are looking up?

kinda.
i am dating laura now, which has definitely made me a lot happier.
i saw dub and reid last night, which was cool.

i wish all my friends lived in the city with me, and i didn't have to get out to the west end all the time to see them.
fell asleep pretty early last night, it was a good change.
i was supposed to listen to this radio show for an hour and a half before class at 1, and i haven't even started yet.
it doesn't look like i will be getting much of that done.
oh well.

hanging today hopefully will consist of:

kicking it with josh, erika, hopefully ethan.
going to this graveyard josh explained to me while i was asleep last night.
hanging with brittany clark?

mark's birthday party is on saturday and i couldn't be more stoked.

i love my brothers.

why the fuck

do things happen to me this way?
why the fuck do i have to be interested in people that aren't available?
why don't these people ever see that i really do care about them and want to have fun with them, unlike the people they are currently with.

if you ever see this, know that i will never be as boring and gay as the dude you're with now.
so, if that's what you're into, sorry that i'll never be the dude for you.

glad i got to see the following people today:

josh
erika
ethan
kage
allison
crazy zack
laura

fuck today, fuck most everything.
things

fall

apart.

definitely not a good day.

so, i tried to do a lab this morning for my psych class, but got locked out, and it didn't work.
so, long story short, i'm fucked, and have a zero for the assignment.
cooooooool.

classes were dumb, and i still have a 3 hour lecture tonight at 7.
mondays are the worst days.

yesterday/last night was cool.
got to hang with some quality individuals, and almost caught up to an escaping car on foot.
ate some legitimate bacon pizza from chanellos for a decent price.

stayed up way too late last night, watched the shining, which is definitely an amazing movie.

i think i'm gonna go bike and grab some shafer.
hopefully today gets better.

never

will i understand myself.
never


will i be able to explain any of my true thoughts.

i'm going fucking crazy for no apparent reason, and i can't change it.

things fall apart

past few days have been interesting/weird/fun/exciting.
hungout with some different people.
saw a lot of friends tonight at new found glory, which was cool.
show was fun, but i've just been in a shitty mood all night, ever since.

i give up on the female race.

i am gonna get tattooed tomorrow.

fuck

the

world.