why the fuck

do things happen to me this way?
why the fuck do i have to be interested in people that aren't available?
why don't these people ever see that i really do care about them and want to have fun with them, unlike the people they are currently with.

if you ever see this, know that i will never be as boring and gay as the dude you're with now.
so, if that's what you're into, sorry that i'll never be the dude for you.

glad i got to see the following people today:

josh
erika
ethan
kage
allison
crazy zack
laura

fuck today, fuck most everything.
things

fall

apart.